I'm Thankful.

Well, today is Thanksgiving. Who doesn't love this holiday? You
get to hang with friends and family and eat till you can't breathe.
I personally enjoy Thanksgiving. Waking up and smelling Nana's 
turkey roasting in the oven. Turning on the t.v to watch the Macy's parade. Cuddling up as I drink my pumpkin Chi tea that my amazing man brought for me. I couldn't be happier. Even if I have to slave at work today to full fill other people's enjoyment. Even if my mother and father have passed away. I know they would want me to enjoy myself.  I could complain about everything and be in a bad mood knowing I won't be home to eat with my boyfriends family, but I'm not. Instead I'm thinking of the things I am grateful for. I'm grateful that I have a job. It might be a crappy one, but I'm earning money and paying my bills. I'm grateful for my boyfriend of four years. I couldn't be happier to have him in my life.I truly am blessed to have my friends that I adore in my life. I'm just grateful to be alive on this beautiful planet. Life shouldn't be about complaining. I know this because I choose to live my own path. My own path to be happy and have fun. Life's short and I want to live every moment in a blessed state of mind. Happy Thanksgiving everyone. Enjoy yourself and get stuffed!! 

Me

I am a product of my own journey so far. Even though I would like to forget some of the horrible things that I have endured in my past and some of the mistakes I have committed, I have to believe that everything that I have been through, is what has molded me today. It's part of my beautiful self. Every situation I have encountered has helped me to form who I am in this moment. 

I also have to thank all of the positive people in my life. They have all inspired me and shaped me for the better. I am more inspired with life and all of it's beauty. I'm finding my self discovery. I made this blog because I discovered I like to write, to express my emotions and my life journey. 

I have found that I have an extraordinary passion to learn, explore more and get into a deeper level of my soul that lives and nests inside me, the soul that is aching to be discovered. Love has also molded me to be more passionate and caring to all other's around me, including myself. 

My heart has opened to except the journey that I am creating today. My smile is getting bigger and bigger. My eyes are bursting with courage. My soul is beginning to glow. I'm finding my happiness and finding the life I'm destined to have. There were a lot of bad and awful roads I could have traveled on, but I decided to make my own road. My own road to happiness and self discovery. I'm proud of the road I have taken. 

I wouldn't have met the love of my life, I wouldn't have found who I am as a woman, I wouldn't of had the most amazing people in my life that I have today. My road is my victory. I am proud of the decisions I have made in my life. 

Music

Music is something I can't live without. The harmony and the sounds make my insides dance.
The words and melodies express my words in ways I cannot. 
I love the feeling when I  close my eyes and feel the tunes run through my veins. The lyrics swimming in my mind as I dance in my candle lit room. 
Memorized as I reflect on my memories of love, fun, anger, and sadness. Music has changed my life in many ways. 
Dazed and lost by the curves of the sound and harmony. 
My soul moves as the music draws me away from all darkness.
Music is my life. Music is my love. Music is my joy. 

Dear...

Dear Human: You've got it all wrong. You didn't come here to master un-conditional love. That is where you came from and where you'll return. You came here to learn personal love. Universal love. Messy love. Sweaty love. Crazy love. Broken love. Whole love. Infused with divinity. Lived through the grace of stumbling. Demonstrated through the beauty of messing up. OFTEN. You didn't come here to be perfect. You already are. You came here to be gorgeously human. Flawed and fabulous. And then to rise again into remembering. 

I got this beautiful poem from my good friend Hilary. I thought I would share it with the world.  I would also like to add that this blog wouldn't be possible without the inspiration from the love of my life. He is a talented poet with such passion for life and himself. Check him out. raytheraven.blogspot.com 

Breaking though

Woman are beautiful and powerful. Each curve is breath taking and sassy.
But there is one lady I know. She isn't the woman I know she can be. Insecure and full of fear and doubt. 
Infected from harm from childhood memories. Inside her and behind her big red juicy heart lies a gorgeous and confident woman, but she is living her life behind her thick white skin trying to break free. 
Her insides are full of warmth and shine. 
She's ready to burst the woman she was born to be. Day by day her skin begins to crack and crack, letting her warm and bright heart break free. 
Her smiles begin to get bigger and bigger. Her bright blue eyes begin to burst with courage. Her goddam soul begins to glow with loving energy. She is finding herself and her amazing qualities. 
She is beautiful and smart. She cares for other's 
deeply and leaves stunning memories behind. 
She has finally arrived to the life she was destined to have. 

Life Contract

I am confident, powerful, deserving and resourceful leader. Determined to demonstrate authentic compassion for all people.