Growing into something beautiful

As a kid growing up life wasn't easy. Grew up with parents that were more into drugs than their own children, but hey that was the life that was given to me. Yes, it was hard and down right awful. Saw things I shouldn't have seen. Seeing lifeless bodies, people including my parents taking substances that made them crazy, and seeing my parents fight to the point of being physical. I shared this awful past with my little sister who looked up to me as a mother. I was there for my sister through thick and thin. Even on the streets of L.A. where people didn't care if you were alive or dead. Begging for money on the streets just to have a bite to eat. To feel warm and happy just for that moment. That's all we wanted. My sister was so little and so confused on the things that we're happening that I'll I wanted to do was comfort her and give her the happiness that she deserved. As time went on my mind was confused and drilled that this was the life that I will be living. I didn't see much hope and faith towards the up coming years of my life as a kid. I would dream and pray that this life of mine would change and I would live a life that I could have fun and play. As years went on a lady finally stopped to notice that my sister and I weren't not in safe and healing environment. Social Services came with concern and took us from my mother. At the time my step father was in Jail for abusing the drug Heroin. My mother cried and cried till she couldn't cry anymore. As for my sister and I.. screaming, nothing but screaming. Time stopped for me and everything was in slow motion. I'll I could think about was to stay with my sister. We went through five foster homes and no one wanted to have us as their children. It makes sense when my sister was nothing but a crazy one trying to fit it. Times were not easy when it came to living a better life for myself. Told by many that I would not accomplish anything with the past and background that I had. Every thought, every opinion was nothing but negative words telling me that I had a learning disability and with that I wouldn't be able to pass high school, I wouldn't be able to work at a high end job. That I would be dealing with depression and self loathing. For some time I believed all their stupid thoughts and opinions. I had fear, I had low self esteem. I had the impression that I would be working a 9-5 job and being unhappy with my life, so with that, that's what I did. I followed their opinions and was unhappy. I was a mess with no goals or dreams. I disappointed myself and other's and I lost friends and didn't know why. There were times when I thought just not being here would be better, but things changed one, just one day! I met a beautiful lady who saw good in me. She knew I could shine and be the bright star that I am. Slowly I started doing some self healing work with her and really bettering myself as a person and as a woman. I was creating a new life path and having dreams. I started reading books to knowledge myself better on the power of life. I was changing and blooming into something that I couldn't describe. I felt different and more compelling than ever! From then on I knew that I could live the life I wanted. I graduated high school, I graduated from a class called life by Design and here I am working on a blog and enjoying my writing. Never did I know I had the potential to write beautiful post and inspire other's. I've been traveling and being inspired by other's as well. Seeing all the beauty in the world and growing. I have the most beautiful man by my side encouraging me to live a life worth living. He brings me love and joy and I love every once of him. I thank the Universe everyday that I have come out of my shell and proved myself that I can do what I want and love. I can create the journey and the path I want. My path will be GOLD and smooth and beautiful. I want everyone to know that every person on this planet can improve and change their life for the better. I want everyone to know that everyday can be a good day. Everyday can be beautiful and bliss. Enjoy the people around you, spread love, and smile. We all have the potential to be something great. xoxo