Conversations with God

If I were to have a conversation with God, what would I ask? What would I say? What conversation would I have with my Creator?  This question gave me chills and excitement at the same time. It made me feel eager to know I can have any conversation I want with the ONE and only. Although, I feel eager, talking with the Creator is all brand new to me. This is going to be challenging for me, but if I'm going to start this conversation I am going to start off with my appreciation for my life and appreciation for the love I'm surrounded in. I appreciate my creator's guidance through my experiences and my feelings.  I am thankful for all that's around me, good or bad. I appreciate the knowledge I'm surrounding myself in. I'm thankful for my creator's guidance to my number one dream in life. Which is to be an inspiring coach in self healing and also in fitness and health. It's something I've been yearning to do for quite sometime now. Lately I haven't had the motivation or the kick in the butt to get this dream coming along. I'm a little lost on where to start. My question would be to ask for guidance and how to go above and beyond to make my goal come true. Why don't I have this motivation to do so? I dream of it everyday and imagine myself in that spot of happiness. What can I do to start? Where do I get the confidence and faith to do so? These are the questions I ask myself everyday, and the thing is... I'm actually talking to my God and not even knowing it. I'm given signs and reasons but not seeing them as opportunities. My creator is there with me all the time and supporting me all the way. I couldn't be more blessed knowing that I can feel my creator through my actions that I make everyday. There are many questions I would love to ask my God. There is one that pops up from time to time and I'm curious.. Why did I live such a negative past? Why we're my parents taken away from their lives so early? Is there a way I can understand these situations in a more positive way? I'll I do know is that without the journey I had in the past I wouldn't being here, right now reading off my journal to inspire other's to know that there is a way to change and be happier, and to enjoy life to it's fullest and to be able to have the opportunity to meet positive role models and learn from them. At the time I was younger I didn't know where my life was headed and I had no support what so ever, but the whole time without my even knowing God had a plan for me and it was to be here sharing my feelings and creating a bond that will last a life time. :) I need to always remind myself that my Creator is my highest thought, my clearest word and my grandest feeling <3

Painting Changes

Here I am, sitting here thinking where my life is headed. I'm living in a garage and broke. Now, I could look at this in a negative way or look at it in a positive way. There are days when I want to be in a bad mood and be the victim of my life, but when I think about it.. WHY? Why put myself in an energy that makes me feel horrible? I've come so far in ways I never thought possible. My knowledge about life and about myself has grown. I live my life in a perspective where things happen for a reason and the Universe will indeed throws things at me that could lead me in a place of good. Yes, I'm living in a garage.. so what! Instead of thinking of the things that are negative in this situation.. I'm looking at this as an opportunity to wake up. To change my life and make goals for myself. It's thrilling and exciting when I write my dreams, the dreams that will change my life for the better. Living in my boyfriends mom's garage has also giving me the opportunity to become closer to his family and I'm enjoying every second of it. My intentions for seeking a better life has already landed me a retail job in my town. I look forward to start making an income and saving for my life's dreams. Nothing better than creating and painting my own canvas. Leading a colorful path to my gold. :)